Heavenly Father, it's a shame that Americans have a holiday that they use as a reason to be thankful. Yay, but shouldn't we have hearts of thanksgiving everyday? Why do we need a commercialized holiday to be grateful?
Anyways, I need to work on being more thankful in my daily life. I have SO much to be grateful for. When I get in mindsets of despair or frustration, I can remember that you always provide, LORD. Lord I thank you for the job that you have recently provided me. God, I love it so much. It's a job where I can use my passions, and experience joy and laughter every day. I am thankful that I am no longer in the place I was in last holiday season or even 8 months ago. I am thankful to be living in a beautiful city with beautiful people and lots of adventure. I have family that care about me, I have friends that love me, and I experience joy everyday through my relationship with you. I love you Lord, and thank you for continuing to provide for me and bless me.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
"The fruit of the Spirit produces a unique set of relationship skills. The gentle way we relate with each other and the humility that takes the spotlight off us is remarkable. We become incredibly patient with one another - overlooking offenses and "putting-up" with each other in a loving way. This is one of the ways "love covers a multitude of sins" (1 Peter 4:8). We choose not to focus on the wrongs, hurts, faults, and things that might otherwise cause us to have relationship problems."
Mark McPeak, Grace in the Empty Spaces, page 9.
Monday, November 19, 2012
There is never a time on Earth when I feel more alive than when I can feel the power of God’s word in my life. Aside from adventures like going to a different country or learning how to surf, I guess. There’s another kind of beauty in experiences like that. But even when the Bible confronts my own duplicity and false piety, I feel most alive in the thick of learning.
You can’t rush God. You can’t push Him. You can’t pull Him. You can’t tug Him or taunt Him. If he has a mind to linger right where He is, you can’t budge Him one inch. You can, however, try to go without Him but, chances are, you’ll come back because, if you really have a heart for God, you’ll be, miserable beyond His blessing. He is our home. Our point of return. It’s like we are all prodigal sons, a rebellious Israel, turning back from the one we love, living recklessly, but only feeling at true reality when we are in His arms.
Kurt A. Richardson writes, “Here is the sobering truth about the nature of the trials in the life of righteous persons, that God allows them to be tested in order to prove their faith…In some ways their endurance proves the Lord’s boast in them.” We always feel more romantic about suffering when we’re not doing it. Still, the thought that God might boast in us puts a shot or iron in our anemic souls, doesn’t it? Alive. He makes us alive. I can breathe. I feel alive, and I can breathe for the first time. It’s like you’ve opened my eyes, I can feel my heart is coming alive.
Job’s submission to God speaks of his repentance for speaking of things beyond his knowledge and he confesses that God will not fail. Oh how guilty I am for these same things. But how he loves us so much, and does not condemn us. “For I heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees you.” Job 42:5
Home, home is wherever I’m with you. God, you are my delight!
Saturday, September 29, 2012
As you can probably imagine, I have been thinking about being a teacher a lot. In the teaching credential program, I spend about 24 1/2 hours in the classroom and 14 hours in college classes a week. It's pretty much a full time job. Naturally I have been having a lot of anxiety about keeping up with this new schedule and figuring out my new role as a future teacher. With these new responsibilities, I have called into question the calling on my life and what direction God has for me. Am I really called to teaching?
For now, I am. I am a student teacher for a first grade classroom. I was reading James 3:1-2a, which says: " Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers [or sisters], because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly. We all stumble in many ways." At first, I freaked out because I'm thinking, well shoot, I am going to be judged more strictly because I am going into the teaching profession! There is this sense of accountability in teaching. "Much will be required of everyone who has been given much. And even more will be expected of the one who has been entrusted with more" (Luke 12:48b). However, Beth Moore says that the judgment referenced in James 3:1 is toward the quality of the works and the loss or gain of reward, not the eternal destination of our souls. Whew!!
1 Corninthians 3:12-15 says: "If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work. If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. If it is burned up, he will suffer loss, he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames."
I never want to teach without looking to him during the day. Teachers can easily mislead by teaching more than they actually know. Beth Moore gives the best advice " to feverishly seek the filling of the Holy Spirit so that, when we cross the line, we feel conviction." I want to memorize this scripture: "My teaching isn't mine but is from the One who sent Me. The one who speaks for himself seeks his own glory. But he who seeks the glory of the One who sent Him is true, and there is no unrighteousness in Him" (John 7:16,18) "Do you seek great things for yourself?" Jeremiah 45:5 No! Ultimately all comes full circle in God's economy, and His glory turns out to be the greatest possible thing for us (Beth Moore).
I love that Moore continues to say "Keep check on your motives, stick to the scriptures, and ask God to give you the supernatural capacity to love those listeners more than you love your own skin." I identify with the fact that there is a great demand for self-discipline. As a teacher, you need to be into studying, so you are educated on what you are teaching. However, the greater self-discipline is fighting ferociously to hang on to your intimate relationship with Jesus. God will never call us to sacrifice our intimacy with Him on the altar of ministry (teaching). We have t zealously maintain out prayer lives and our love lives and teach out of the overflow of what Christ is teaching us! Otherwise we trudge blindly through the graveyard where teachers turn to dust. AMEN!
Thank God the Lord teaches us what to say (Exodus 4:12). There is a lot of human judgment that goes along with teaching. "Am I now trying to win the favor of people, or God? Or am I striving to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a slave of Christ" (Gal 1:10). And boy do I want to be! If God is calling me to teach, I am doing it!!!! But I will be falling on my face before him before I even begin teaching.
Sunday, September 23, 2012
My sister just recently introduced me to an online Christian magazine for young adults. Well, actually, I looked to see it was a bookmark on her computer and I nosily went to check out what her "Set Apart Girl" tab was all about. I discovered that it is full of articles on how to grow in your intimacy with God, dating and relationships, and being a woman of the Lord. The articles seem so deep, thought provoking and satisfying to read. In a world where I crave deeper intimacy, and spiritual renewal, I find that this online magazine will be a great encouragement.
I am so excited to dive into the spirit filled pages and to learn and grow from them. I am thrilled because I have been really missing a quality Christian magazine in my life ever since the Brio magazine for teen girls discontinued. Those magazines were a big part of my high school life! Not only is it online, so I don't have to wait a month for the next issue, but it is also FREE.
Check it out at www.setapartgirl.com and let me know what you think :-)
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
It doesn’t take much for me to realize how blessed I am these days. It is a Tuesday night and I am sitting in the living room relaxing with my two awesome roommates. I just finished my homework for the week. Praise God! It truly is amazing how much more grateful I am for my life when I reflect on how good I have it. It is totally all God. I want to reflect on all that he has blessed me with recently.
~A degree in Liberal Studies that will help me get a career
~acceptance into the credential program to train me on becoming a teacher
~a wonderful, supportive family
~close, Christian friends
~Finances to make it through the year
~An Adorable group of first graders
~Working for a cooperating teacher who loves her job and is passionate about teaching
It is amazing how much worry went into this coming year concerned with this year of transition into the credential program. All for nothing! God really does provide. He always has for me. It’s just whether or not I choose to realize it. When I’m enveloped in his grace and mercy, I am satisfied.
I’m blessed to be going through James right now. It has been life giving to have a quiet time daily in the midst of my school schedule, which should never be an excuse really. I love having a cup of Chai while reading the word. I’m learning that we are free from the law because of Christ’s redeeming blood. We are saved by grace, and not by works, but we need to do works in order to visibly show others that we have faith (2:14-18). We place our faith in the fact that God is one, but we also believe that he bore our sins so that we can be called righteous. I love that we believe that in order to find ourselves, we lose ourselves in all that is glory and grace. Lord, let us bask ourselves in your glory and grace instead of our selfish lives.
Monday, July 23, 2012
I just finished enrolling in 4 classes for the teaching credential program this fall as well as for the teaching practicum I that involves student teaching. At the moment, I have 16 units with an official schedule set up. I can’t believe I will already be starting the program in a couple more weeks. I guess it won’t feel real until I am in Chico and have met my cooperating teacher. We haven’t set up an interview yet! I am waiting a little bit longer because I still have 3 weeks left of camp. I’m sure my CT is still enjoying her summer as well and doesn’t want to think about the coming school year yet!
It’s our sixth week at camp and I don’t have a cabin. I am on my rotation week, which means I have a specific job at camp all week. This week I am working the zip line., which has been fun. I just started this morning. I clip campers into the harness right before they jump off the climbing tower to slide down the zip line! I think it will be a relaxing job, and it will be nice to enjoy the view from up there and get to know some of the Red Hats (who run the adventure courses as their job).
I’m rooming with two of my friends here at camp, and we have a nice room in Frontier Lodge to ourselves! I’m looking forward to being in skits with them and having some fun adventures in the evenings after campfire. It’s nice to not have to go to bed with eight of your campers, so that you can enjoy going on some adventures for a week! I am hoping to go to West Cliff, the boardwalk, and go on some night hikes. This week I am also hoping to go surfing.
Camp is flying by. I have three more weeks! This weekend is Lauren and Ben’s wedding, so I am trying to coordinate when I can leave camp, and who I am picking up. It will be a lot of driving in one weekend, but the event itself will be so great. I have a feeling it will leave me very tired going into my last counseling week, but I know that God will give me the energy. Our staff banquet is the following weekend, and then I leave camp on August 9th to be in my friend Erin’s wedding!
Unfortunately I have not been in the Word too much this summer. It is difficult for me to find the time to have consistent quiet times here. The schedule is so busy and it is just hard to make the choice to not hang out with staff and read my Bible alone in my room. However, this week I want to be better about discussing what I am reading in the Bible and just sitting down and reading it.
Tuesday mornings are one of my favorite days of the week because it is when we have our discipleship groups. It’s a great time to connect on a deeper level with a small group of girls on staff. We share our testimonies and check in with each other. Last week we talked about doing a devotional/ Bible study together on the book of James. It is a Beth Moore workbook, which I am thrilled about because I have always gotten a lot out of her studies. I am technically “supposed” to be in Isaiah right now for the chronological reading, but this may just be a little detour that I have to take. Isaiah seems to be a book that requires a lot of attention, and I want to dedicate that time to it.
Be praying that I feel refreshed this week and will have the energy to be around people at the zipline this week as well as make time to spend with God.